Limbo

After the first draw of 39, four days later I went back and it was 34. A week later it had dropped to 20. Obviously, not a viable pregnancy. We're not sure that it actually was a new chemical pregnancy or just retained products of conception from the last time around. It's now been 6 1/2 weeks since the D&C and as of yesterday my HCG levels were down to 15 (from 20 a week before). The slow drop has been an emotional hell. I just want to be done with this entire situation. I still obviously haven't had a cycle yet. I'm leaving now for vacation, with a 6 1/2 hour flight in front of me today. I'm sure it'll start then.

Again.

HCG level from Thursday morning was 39. With not having a cycle after my miscarriage/D&A I have no idea when I ovulated. Repeat blood test today. So nervous.